Wednesday, 28 December 2016

Pain's Embrace

She wraps her arms around me in an embrace,
the flames lick up the side of my face,
Tightly she holds me, crushing me, bruising me,
My ribs, my arm, the whole of my back,
No release, not even in sleep,
Day and night, night and day,
She keeps up with me in a most relentless way.
She is no stranger this companion of mine,
I've known her since 10 years plus 4
When the chair was pulled and I fell to the floor,
To provide a laugh to those with small minds.
But after a while it wasn't constant, there was an off switch,
Life could resume, she often left me alone, it was not all the time
Now it has all changed and this 'friend' of mine
keeps me company too much, she is with me always,
Day and night, night and day.
For the last long eight years there is no relief,
And now it has spread, you see
not just my arm, my side, my face,
but my whole trunk front and back
the pain never leaves, and is growing
Her company is wearing, I get fed up,
Just to leave me alone for a while would be good
So I could sleep and wake feeling rested and refreshed
Not constantly caught in her tight embrace.


  1. I am so sorry. constant pain is not friend and can drive us crazy, it just never goes. So easy for others to say ignore it, medicate, meditate. They don't know what it's really like. You have my sympathy..

    1. Thank you - it is sometimes difficult to ignore!

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    1. Thanks Graham, I don't mean to moan, but sometimes I just have to let it all out.

  3. I didn't know that a fall was what started this painful journey. I sincerely hope 2017 will bring some relief from the constant pain.

    1. Well that was the beginning of learning what pain was about for me, and it hugely inteferred into my examination years as I couldn't sit down for long and that was the time school exams were 3 hours long! Over a long time this reduced and by my 30s it wasn't such a problem... the more recent pain was the result of my operation for TOS 8 years ago.


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